Sunkissed

*Typed this up over a week ago on my phone when I was reminded that it’s okay to write poems and prose. I haven’t written any in so long since writing more serious things for school and work

I never liked the summer
No matter how they wrote it up in films
Of young romance and seasoned possibilities
Beach trips and tropical booze
Sunburns and how the sun burnt
But some days I find I don’t mind
How the light seeps through
All the corners of peach wallpapered rooms
How the shadows play on tiles and concrete
The occasional rainbow on the countertop
Passing through water bottles
Spaghetti strap sundresses
And sunkissed furniture
I think some days
I don’t mind the summer
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had too much fun decorating this

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transit terminal vol. 5

*I’m packing for a quick trip over the long weekend to visit my brother, so I thought of sharing bits of what life’s been like lately. It’s been busy but pretty good despite the chaos I’ve been learning more about the world and myself, alone and not

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On a short summer break 🌞
Falling asleep to CNN/BBC
Survived the first term of my senior research
🌟 & I did surprisingly well 🌟
Sleeping earlier
Rethinking unhealthy relationships
Had a blood test 💉 and my results were a-ok!
Tidying up parts of my room little by little
Finished w my study desk and shelves and dresser
Waking up to IG stories from the west
Rediscovering literature I might want to read 📚
Seeing my grandmother more often
Read thru my magazine collection
Cut out some lovely pages ✂️
Following abstract artists
Watching vlogssssssss vlogs and vlogs
Following the French elections
Sundressing 👗
Thinking abt that decently priced giant latte at a Korean dessert cafe
Research on coconut oil and apple cider vinegar
YouTube yoga few times a week
🍳 Preparing my meals 🥑
Liking handpainted prints and patterns
✍️ Religiously updating my daily planner & daily gratitude journal 📒
Crushing on young Jeremy Irons and Ralph Fiennes
📱 Waiting for my first call from my BeMyEyes app! 🤓

The Sunday Currently Vol. 4

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R E A D I N G up on some companies before I write them, introduction to epistemology when I find the discipline, and more importantly Frog and Toad and the Self by The Atlantic aaaand I finally got to catch up on the previous issues of Northern Living & Southern Living, my favorite local publications earlier over lunch

W R I T I N G individual cover letters and editing my resume in my spare time

L I S T E N I N G to Change of Heart by The 1975, my favorite from their new album and a follow up to my other favorite song from the previous album, Robbers

T H I N K I N G about biking or walking around the village with Dad in a bit. It’s been a daily exercise the last few weeks with my parents

S M E L L I N G the failure of my daily skincare, sensing the calm before the storm of allergic reactions lol. I’m smelling a very temporary lotion that I splash around exposed areas for when I jog later. Nonetheless the bugs still tick me off even as I move but I can’t find any effective insect repellent around the house. Also smelling the pale yet distinct chemicals and artificiality of cakey and probably expired makeup in my bathroom. I had just attempted practicing on my face once again but I ended up looking like… let’s just say, nothing close to the YouTube makeup tutorials. I was feeling really icky after 10 minutes so I wiped it out with some remover wipes I happen to be likely allergic to, so I’m smelling the residue of that too, haha

W I S H I N G for a longer summer break (not gonna happen)

H O P I N G to paint later? To take my online course on collage art more seriously heehee. And that the incoming term in school won’t be so painful to get through or anywhere near as painful to get through as the last one

W E A R I N G the super faded college PE shirt my mom borrowed from I-dont-know-who years ago and we never returned and I fortunately got away with never buying a uniform for my PE classes, haha. Now it’s really worn out and comfy

L O V I N G a very funny Hugh Grant who can’t speak in an American accent in Mickey Blue Eyes, my parents, lattes, rosey cheeks, and the color lavender all of a sudden

W A N T I N G to look like that PONY makeup Korean girl in these videos hahaha how how how, plus a bigger bicycle perhaps

N E E D I N G to have the discipline to send out some applications and to learn photoshop forrealz

F E E L I N G a summer hangover just because who wants to go to school, right? The medium sized Iced Breve from Seattle’s Best take effect quite calmly

C L I C K I N G through Hugh Grant videos and some sites so I can properly understand what a breve is just out of curiosity

The Sunday Currently is a blog link-up by siddathornton.

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It’s been so long because I lost track of consistently jotting down all the movies I watched when there was school, but here’s the fourth edition of Aidee’s High Definition (Movie) Database. These are just some films I watched over plane rides and a number of these of I consider girly girl therapy. Enjoy!


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Honey, I Shrunk The Kids (1989)
★★★☆☆
Szalinski kids

Grew up watching the third one almost every single day on VHS so that might be my favorite of all the Honey, We Shrunk-series or is it trilogy, but this is pretty good too and a lot older. This is the first, yeah.

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Matilda (1996)
★★★
cause I’m big and you’re small

I just had to choose that photo up there because it was such an epic scene I remember so distinctly. This is yet another feel good movie but it doesn’t ever get old for me. Especially this Brucey scene and the ending. I also would like to have a cottage like Miss Honey with wild flowers and tea. And look as good as Elizabeth Davidtz in overalls.

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Sex and the City (2008)
★★★
labels and love

I first saw this movie with my mom and her best friend in the movie house when I was at the brink of girlhood, haha. I was bordering tomboyish and should-I-be-girly. I surprisingly enjoyed the movie then so much that I watch it every time I go through sad things, haha especially heartbreaks or just when I’m bored. It’s really long, probably 3 hours and within that time, I always manage to feel better. I can write a separate post about Sex & The City but for now if you think you might be that kinda girl, you should totally give this a watch. It’s something one of my closest girlfriends, Pam and I really enjoy, haha! It’s a really quote-able movie too.

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The Danish Girl (2015)
★★★
Einar is dead

I don’t know if this deserves a 3? I’m being biased. I didn’t feel good watching it? Otherwise it would’ve gotten a 4.5 for the set and costume design and acting even. Maybe I’m just not cut out for real life, haha. I probably have a weird gauge of depressing and woah was this depressing. In a nice way? Like it was artfully depicted on screen which I really like. Period films have a way of either hitting the mark or killing me, and this kept fluctuating in between? I was mildly disturbed and annoyed throughout the movie. Confused too. I couldn’t relate to any of the characters on any level but I guess that’s why. It’s not because of the gender roles, it’s more than that though. I felt that it was so certain then empty and stubborn in a way I can’t understand? I thought the characters were rather unreasonable. Again, not entirely because of the gender roles. I know it’s supposed to be empowering and although it probably is to a lot of individuals, maybe just not to me because it doesn’t affect me that way. If their love for each other was really like this however, then that’s really admirable. I also had high hopes for it. I do think it’s worth watching. If you’re looking for a transgender film, I recommend Transamerica if you wanna see something quite entertaining, touching, and informative. However, I guess it’s really different because The Danish Girl was loosely based on a pioneering transgender. Hmm… It’s interesting to watch, like I really did feel like an audience and it’s all new to me? Applause to Eddie Redmayne and Alexandra Vikander. But perhaps I like Eddie more as a guy, haha. Personal opinion. But I don’t see anyone who would’ve done it better than him. He could have given more from the inside though. Like I saw all the physical developments but I didn’t see character development. I just saw the switch and the snap. Maybe it’s the script? Not sure..

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Mother’s Day (2016)
★★★
them soccer moms

If I had to be a suburban mom someday, may I have these women’s bodies. I thought it was pretty entertaining, comedic then a tear-jerker too. It’s something I caught with my mom for our mother-daughter bonding this mother’s day in the movie house. She likes these kinds of Garry Marshall light-hearted movies. And sour cream popcorn. I like Gary Marshall too. I didn’t enjoy his more recent attempts I admit, like Valentine’s Day and New Year’s Eve. This would have to be the more recent favorite in spite of its bad reviews. But of course I like the older Gary Marshall stuff. The cast was a surprise, it always is. And Timothy Olyphant was such a treat haha who wouldn’t wanna baby sit for that dad? Father’s Day, please.

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Jurassic World (2015)
★★★
Blue, Charlie, Delta, Echo

I loveeeeed Jurassic Park. And I love Jurassic World. Watched it again recently because my little cousin didn’t wanna watch the original because it was too scary for him, and I think it is too for a six year old, so this had to do. But it’s great. It’s like Universal Studios but dinosaurs, I mean c’mon?

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Excess Baggage (1997)
★★★
you don’t have to be drunk to kiss me y’know

Caught this one afternoon on HBO. I’m adding it here just because for some odd reason I will never understand, despite the weirdness? Ugh I was touched by some of the scenes here with Benicio del Toro and Alicia Silverstone. Thumbs up to this scene. The only time I felt this way about a scene was when Jennifer Grey and Patrick Swayze in Dirty Dancing were learning the steps with Hungry Eyes playing in the background hahaha. I just had to stop then breathe in and out. (Lol I should write a post dedicated to my favorite mushy gushy scenes of all time?) I’ve always loved Benicio del Toro, no judgement here k, haha. And I superkaduper love Alicia Silverstone. Never thought it’d work but maybe it’s the unlikeliness of these movie couples chemistries that get me. 0:51 to 2:51. Hey bring me to a lake just like that with mountains and a fog surrounding the place one morning and why not add that Dave Matthews Band song in the background, then see if I don’t go a little nuts too. MY HEART. People usually go on to describe long walks in the beach and all as their ideal somethings but this is my ideal thing. A lake, below 20 degree weather, some mountains on the background, and that Dave Matthews Band song, gahh. *Enter butterflies in stomach* post card perfect.

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Uptown Girls (2003)
★★★
tea cups in Coney Island

Honestly I thought this movie was made in the 90s and I’m surprised to find that it was just made in 2003. I feel old? Because 2003 now looks real old to me. Like iconic vintage? I may have enjoyed all the clothes and the setting more than the storyline itself actually. Props to young Dakota Fanning for taking on another one of her earlier mature roles. New York, New York apartments, shift dresses, overalls, it’s a visual treat for me. The stars mostly came from the setting and the outfits, haha.

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Bridesmaids (2011)
★★★
I mean ladies, it’s a Fritz Bernaise

Female version of The Hangover except has a better story. Such a feel good movie. Something to watch with the girlfriends too. I like TV weddings too so mixing that with haphazard planning is fun. This just goes to show that anyone can hit rock bottom and still have an awesome comeback.

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Fathers and Daughters (2015)
★★★
POTATO CHIP

Personally, this movie is a dramatized tragic version of my relationship with my own dear old dad. The part where she screwed up with her relationship also kinda spoke to me. Except, it isn’t real life, grr haha. Russell Crowe can play mentally ill roles rather well, then to see him juggle that with a dominant father role is just really touching. I love Russell Crowe. And I love my dad too!

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Spotlight (2015)
★★★
and the Oscar goes to…

I should be writing a post dedicated to this entire movie and maybe I will too. Spent nights of research and reading about the true story. I’ll try to keep it short here. What a cast. What a story. A true story. This doesn’t exactly glorify journalists but sheds some light on what the job should really be about. Who doesn’t wanna be a better journalist after seeing this on film? I come by some articles online that always make me wanna be better, but yay a movie. But thank you for putting the spotlight too (hehe word play) on the significance of the job. The score is strangely nice too. Michael Keaton. Mark Ruffalo. Rachel McAdams. Umm, Mark Ruffalo & Rachel McAdams. Dream guy and dream girl in the same movie? Lovelovelove.

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How To Be Single (2016)
★★★
breaking up sucks, but you know what’s even worse? Wasting a night in New York City

Aw this movie was.. I almost said life changing but my life’s the same even after watching it. Haha, I’m still single but after watching it I’m more motivated about making it happier and okay. The title makes it seem like a guidebook but there’s actually a nice storyline and it’s entertaining. I laughed, cried, and got all giddy for different reasons. In the plane. So much that I asked for three more croissants in the plane ride? Very very very very relatable. I just wish I lived in New York, too. (Canada now actually) Good cast. Good characters. It’s nice they’re making films about more real situations about people being assholes, awkward situations, un-fantasies, in a fantasy-like way? Am I making sense? I think every 20-something girl in 2016 ought to watch this. It doesn’t just preach to single girls about the single life but more about time and timing. It happens to anyone and everyone being single and not being single, but within given times so make the most of your situation whatever that may be. Maybe even the crappier, the better. It’s real empowering. It’s a happy-sad movie. Watch it happy and watch it sad. Personally, just like Alice, there are greater heights I both literally and figuratively want to climb on my own. I really ought to. There’s something very millennial and 2016 about this movie like it was made for us? Appropriate timing.

Transit Terminal Vol. 3

*I haven’t done the Transit Terminal series since last summer and now that it’s summer once again, while waiting to take off to elsewhere, here’s what I’ve been upto 

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Updating my iTunes library with songs, not actual updates from Apple haha 🎶
Working on sharing my songs ^
Catching up on some sleep or trying 😴
Applying for a day job, wah I hope I hear back
Afternoon therapeutic painting w Dihiah’s hand-me-down Gouache 🎨
Throwing out/ recycling this term’s papers from my desk ♻️
Hydrating 💧
Reading the morose side of Twitter
Reruns of Say Yes To The Dress and Little People, Big World on the background, it soothes me
Third-wheeling my parents on their anniversary month
Keeping up with The Kramers against all my past social media family contesting haha they’re actually really local family goals
📌 Pinteresting as usual
Probably quitting on my Belle De Jour planner cause of changes & phases
Went to the gym a few times, lawl
Random hospital visits for various reasons 🏥
Slowly adding to my tea set, meaning I just got two tiny milk containers for a bargain
✍ Writing poetry and spontaneous prose and letters and notes
Also writing drafts and never actually posting them
🔖 Bookmarking articles for future reading
Nail biting ugh my bad habits
☑️ Reassessing my votes for the elections
Losing my appetite
🙉 Opting not to have a lot of conversations 🙊
Practice driving 🚘
🎀 On a Matilda high 🎀
Roaming around on my own
Looking for new trainers 👟 my 4-year-old ones just broke
Growing out my hair
🍓🍌 Fruits before meals and between 🍈🍍
Over thinking
Cycle of healing and hurting
Watching all sorts of badly rated but entertaining 90s movies 📽
💖 For the first time, supporting Miss Universe Philippines Maxine Medina 👑 she’s so pretty and pretty amazing too
Struggling to charge a camera 📷 (update: battery broke)
Looking for a water jug
Marathoning Dual Survival and Marooned with Ed Stafford on Discovery cause I wanna gauge what I won’t be able to do in that situation 🍃
Waiting for my big brother to come home
Last minute packing

 

Cold showers

Summer began
with the heat of ending conversations,
from the fiction of your push and my pull,
and the way some of those words burnt me,
and it hurt.

Summer began
with lasting cold shoulders,
the only kind of cold that ever bothered me,
and how I sit under each cold shower,
waiting for artificial rainwater
to take me away.

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was gonna use a real photo I had but it’s in my laptop

The Sunday Currently Vol. 3

*Wasn’t sure whether or not it was right for me to post a Sunday Currently today because I haven’t been my best but I guess it’s all about keeping it real. I can’t just post Sunday Currently’s of pretty Sunday afternoons cause those aren’t always the case. This might be a nice break from my dismal proses. 

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found this on Twitter and it was captioned “bruised with longing”

R E A D I N G an e-book and a powerpoint and a sticky for my 7:30 am presentation tomorrow morning then some of my scattered notes once I find them for an oral test the following day

W R I T I N G typing the things I’m reading from above^, then if I have time, a crammed synthesis paper of everything I didn’t learn this term also due tomorrow, and a whole lot of sad prose/posts that fail to be vague in between if you’ve noticed

L I S T E N I N G to Only You by Sensi Sye & Keep Me In Mind by Cape Cub as I’ve just gotten past my three-day sentimental movie soundtrack phase then made a switch, I will hesitantly admit, to some 2013 Avicii just last night (might share this in a separate post)

T H I N K I N G about what toooo dooooo aand yeah

S M E L L I N G nothing really I just took a shower too

W I S H I N G I get to spend my birthday how I wish to spend it (this is redundant but hey, am I granted some special birthday week wishing dust? pleaseplease)

H O P I N G  it doesn’t have to be that way and I’m not too too too late and out of hope and luck and chances and junk

W E A R I N G a purple shirt from an event that was all the hype back in my senior year in high school and my rose-colored boxers & my newly washed eyeglasses cause the nose bridge gets oily yikes

L O V I  N G from a distance the things I shouldn’t have been silent bout appreciating and loving back then wah, entertaining guests at home spontaneously, guests who like to drink coffee or tea so I can get preparing, my parents for being so supportive of me despite my many recent failures and shortcomings, and I guess 2013 Avicii, nobody dare judge me I was a huge fan and still am of his older stuff

W A N T I N G the temperature outside to drop cause I think about the people in the streets who don’t have a place to stay and live directly under the cruel cruel rays of the sun without potent water this summer aaand repeat all hopes & wishes from up there^ cause I’m greedy huuhuu wah

N E E D I N G to accept and take responsibility gracefully for the consequences of my actions and maybe stop proudly insisting that I don’t need anybody (again this is redundant) but I once in a while come across some good good people I wouldn’t want gone from my life and I’ll *need* ’em to stay just cause :c or I’ll insist it all over again till I believe it

F E E L I N G loss, lost, bad, blah, worried, warm, and afraid, like a deeply bothered bunny

C L I C K I N G through the red line on YouTube to fast forward to my favorite parts in a song haha

*Okay that wasn’t a clean break from my dismal proses whoops. I was just candidly all over ze place. I’m a mess, peace.

The Sunday Currently is a blog link-up by siddathornton.