Hi Gabs, I won’t get to see on your special weekend but I hope it’s just as kick ass and wonderful. Listen to this and here are just some of the many things I want for you, so 23’ll be gold
lmao look what I found, we need new fitting room pictures
*Been getting sick lately as I’ve been diverting my attention to my senior research which is due too soon, hence it’ll determine the rest of my year. I’m just gonna keep saying this to keep me going
R E A D I N G through scattered responses from interviews I conducted for an article I’m way behind on. Lately I’ve been scanning through so many how-to type sites to guide me with sending emails haha. Thank you, Google. Going to be reading a lot of chapters from the epistemology book for finals this Thursday, bless me and my extremely short attention span especially for digital materials gah PDF books
W R I T I N G that article I’m way behind on. It’s about digital collage art. It’s proving a challenge in more ways then one. Never been this late on submitting an article wah. Also going to be writing an email right before bed to further inquire and confirm something something hmm haha
L I S T E N I N G to Your Side by Vaisle which I find is on a strange level of smooth & sexy. Me and You and Love In The Dark by Gateway Drugs which I highly recommend if you’re into synths
T H I N K I N G about beginning a coffee (plus other drinks) blog? Or just a segment here in this one for that topic? I follow a ton of people on Instagram that take photos of coffee, not just the latte art types though. But I don’t intend on decorating my feed with coffee. I do spend a good amount of time these days raving about coffee, boo. I’m really curious
S M E L L I N G change? Dramatic but my usual everyday fragrance has been out of stock. It’s not a luxury brand if you must know. It’s been out for a while that I worried they might never come out with it again. But the salesperson said I can expect it by November? That isn’t the only change for my nose though. The shampoo I’ve been using since birth (not kidding), well Johnson’s discontinued it after decades. I’m really bummed out. It’s an outrage for my hair and for my nose. No more tears? Yes tears. My hair isn’t so fun to sniff anymore..
W I S H I N G the weather stays cool or gets cooler without having to be a typhoon or destructive monsoon but I’m not complaining about the suspensions
H O P I N G I successfully “paint” my nails for the first time in years. Haha if you know me, I don’t know how to? I’m a slob. Also hope to enjoy the next few weeks whilst managing my time well. I’m not known for that haha! Hoping I pass the term with flying colors and move into the new phase with little to no roadblocks. Hoping I can balance out my impulses and plans, chill and responsibility at least till this week is up
W E A R I N G a spoof shirt that says, KICKASS, one of my most worn shirts to sleep
L O V I N G today. That’s why I wrote this post. Nothing particularly special about this Sunday but I’m beginning to like Sundays with family. I grew up hating Sundays. Today I liked that we ate somewhere new for lunch (hi Erwan Heussaff again haha) and had a few spontaneous minutes in the afternoon. I also got to practice driving around with my dad off to somewhere I haven’t driven to. Greater distances, yay. I picked up some Seattle’s Best for me and my dad and it was drizzling. How great is that? Although I almost hit an old lady he claims, it was fun for me. I’ve also been in a better mood perhaps because of my recent music finds too. I also seem to think I’ve gone through the worst weeks of the term already unless of course I’m underestimating this week and overconfident in my ability to get through it
W A N T I N G to blissfully and carelessly waste away in a coffee shop alone or with company. Believe it or not, I haven’t done this in so so long
N E E D I N G to form better habits like sleeping earlier and drinking more water. Though I’ve been drinking way more water this year than I did my whole life, I say this all the time but it’s just so hard to carry out consistently
F E E L I N G contented with my state of alone-ness? Sometimes busy, sometimes free. Sometimes happy, sometimes lonely
C L I C K I N G through photos of Thai celebrities? This is so random but they keep popping up and some of them are like the prettiest or most good looking people I’ve seen haha! There’s a family I follow. I also follow the Kramers locally
Today to my absolute surprise, I had myself quite a rare and fair happy day. And in my attempt to bask in the afterglow of sweat and rain, I’m going to write a little about it.
I don’t know if it’s sheer luck, coincidence, or fate but some things out of my ordinary happened throughout the day.
And I’d just like to say, thank you, Universe, for giving me this one.
Although I’m running on just two hours of rest and there’s no denying I dozed off once or twice, I’m still feeling pretty energetic from all the that’s happened in just one little day and in school if you’d believe! Little miracles do happen in Taft. They happened to me in the form of pleasant surprises, nothing huge or tangible. This isn’t an everyday thing for me, which is also why I wanna stay awake longer just to hold on to a pretty good day like this. It’s the kind of feeling you just wanna share to your friends and parents. I hate to squeal on little big things for me, still a part of me couldn’t help but to hint it.
Wishful slash over thinking aside and the uncertainty of every other day from here on out; rather the certainty that there are more ordinary days than the opposite. I want to carry this good with me.
Stay strong yet stay light, and do all things with love, to the Aidee tomorrow that might hang on to the day and day-old hope, nostalgic for a good day and a bunch of good things that have gone.
Right now I’m thankful this happened. Today’s been a pleasant surprise.
*Some notes I wrote after watching two movies during the 14hr flight then dozed off miraculously in a blanket that I really liked and smuggled w me 😅
Youngsters helping out elders but complete strangers of different races and nationalities in flight give me a whole lot of hope. Small acts of kindness do have potential of going a long way.
35000 feet on the air and I can still feel so down at times. It can hurt me even from up here, even when I close my eyes.
I hope to fly to where we used to be and where we used to say we’d go. As I travel against daylight until I’m 15hours behind you, I just wanted to say goodnight 🐾
*Wasn’t sure whether or not it was right for me to post a Sunday Currently today because I haven’t been my best but I guess it’s all about keeping it real. I can’t just post Sunday Currently’s of pretty Sunday afternoons cause those aren’t always the case. This might be a nice break from my dismal proses.
found this on Twitter and it was captioned “bruised with longing”
R E A D I N G an e-book and a powerpoint and a sticky for my 7:30 am presentation tomorrow morning then some of my scattered notes once I find them for an oral test the following day
W R I T I N G typing the things I’m reading from above^, then if I have time, a crammed synthesis paper of everything I didn’t learn this term also due tomorrow, and a whole lot of sad prose/posts that fail to be vague in between if you’ve noticed
L I S T E N I N G to Only You by Sensi Sye & Keep Me In Mind by Cape Cub as I’ve just gotten past my three-day sentimental movie soundtrack phase then made a switch, I will hesitantly admit, to some 2013 Avicii just last night (might share this in a separate post)
T H I N K I N G about what toooo dooooo aand yeah
S M E L L I N G nothing really I just took a shower too
W I S H I N G I get to spend my birthday how I wish to spend it (this is redundant but hey, am I granted some special birthday week wishing dust? pleaseplease)
H O P I N G it doesn’t have to be that way and I’m not too too too late and out of hope and luck and chances and junk
W E A R I N G a purple shirt from an event that was all the hype back in my senior year in high school and my rose-colored boxers & my newly washed eyeglasses cause the nose bridge gets oily yikes
L O V I N G from a distance the things I shouldn’t have been silent bout appreciating and loving back then wah, entertaining guests at home spontaneously, guests who like to drink coffee or tea so I can get preparing, my parents for being so supportive of me despite my many recent failures and shortcomings, and I guess 2013 Avicii, nobody dare judge me I was a huge fan and still am of his older stuff
W A N T I N G the temperature outside to drop cause I think about the people in the streets who don’t have a place to stay and live directly under the cruel cruel rays of the sun without potent water this summer aaand repeat all hopes & wishes from up there^ cause I’m greedy huuhuu wah
N E E D I N G to accept and take responsibility gracefully for the consequences of my actions and maybe stop proudly insisting that I don’t need anybody (again this is redundant) but I once in a while come across some good good people I wouldn’t want gone from my life and I’ll *need* ’em to stay just cause :c or I’ll insist it all over again till I believe it
F E E L I N G loss, lost, bad, blah, worried, warm, and afraid, like a deeply bothered bunny
C L I C K I N G through the red line on YouTube to fast forward to my favorite parts in a song haha
*Okay that wasn’t a clean break from my dismal proses whoops. I was just candidly all over ze place. I’m a mess, peace.
How’s your Leap Day going? 
This sumps up my 29th of February, 2016, so I’ll remember better
It’s The Oscars today (I’ll reserve whatever opinions I have about it haha), I ate in KFC for lunch, my synthetic leather bag was peeling so I left dust trails all over my shirt and in campus, plus I came home to catch last year’s nominee, The Theory of Everything, on TV for the nth time this month.
I hope you do something a little strange and daring today of all days because today just happens once in every 4 years and it’ll take a while to remind you of what extraordinary thing you did today. By then you might just be a different person and surely heck of a lot older than you are now. So live memorably.
I hope magical things happen ✨
high ceilings
Scandinavian design
Trial and error, mostly error here but just a thought anyway..
I’d have to live somewhere with a nice view, not of landscapes nor landmarks, but someplace I can watch the sky change its hues
*Something I picked up years ago but never got to doing from Camie Juan, by Lauren of Siddathornton. Hopefully this is the first of many habitual posts on Sundays 😄
R E A D I N G through this NYTimes article, Returning to a Gentler Gotham which is about the author’s impressions of New York City then and now. I especially love reading non-romanticized accounts of real life today in the big city. And an Interview with a Bookstore: Penn Book Center which is just one in a series of interviews conducted with people who own or work in bookstores
W R I T I N G supposedly a draft for Ancient Philosophy class and a spoof article for the April Fools issue of the school paper, but I guess I’m writing this post for now
L I S T E N I N G to Shura’s Indecision ~it may be over but there’s something you should know, you’ve got my love, boy, you’ve got my love~
T H I N K I N G about where to begin organizing my files and of future posts
S M E L L I N G V&M Naturals‘ Oranges Brulee fragrance, which I just picked up in a bazaar last week as one of my summer parfums as I’m running low on the stuff I’ve been using the last six months, thought of switching it up with the season
W I S H I N G this week in school goes by nice and easy (like that old people radio station my dad listens to) cause the last couple of weeks in school have been hell and I’ve been getting sick a lot… Also wish my skin clears up, I might be getting a bad reaction from god knows what but I’m all red and irritated, a bad mix of burnt, dried, and sensitive, yikes
H O P I N G this is the first of many Sunday Currently’s aaaaand something wonderful happens tomorrow, the 29th cause it’s leap year day
W E A R I N G a denim dress and mockenstocks (mock-Birks?)
L O V I N G this Spearmint & Oatmeal soap from Ilog Maria I thankfully found in my bathroom cabinet one day, it’s one of those oatmeal soaps that’s actually filled with oats, not just on the top layer plus it smells perrrrrfect 😍
W A N T I N G at least two free cuts this week! And a nice creamy cup of coffee
N E E D I N G to sleep early, update my computer, transfer files, sync my phone gah
F E E L I N G my face hurt huuhuu and aches all over from my gym trial two days ago
C L I C K I N G through YouTube
I have a thing for things that last.
―Criss Jami, Killosophy
This quote in all its raw honesty and simplicity just sums up my inner struggles and hopes that I set aside for “time to tell”.
Maybe it’s why old things have their own kind of unexplainable beauty brought about by time, from a time that’s already gone. And for a part of it to remain unchanged, for it to stay… In a world wherein nothing lasts, for some things to last… That’s pretty golden.
Today I turn a year older and to celebrate, instead of a birthday party, I decided to take a leap of faith and officially launch my blog!🎈 I’ve had a bunch of secret blogs through the years which I never really shared to anyone because I was always dead afraid, but this has been my dream since way back. And what better way to get a little older than by accommodating a dose of personal growth? After a long time coming, I think I’m finally ready to share these parts of me.
To read up about my blog, the “Ever Upwards” mantra, where it all began, and why I’m doing this… just click here
To get to know more about me, just click here
So welcome to my blog! Thank you for stopping by and I hope you stick around for more posts to come real soon. And just maybe (I’ve got my fingers crossed) you’ll find something in here that’ll make you laugh, cry, think, wonder, smile, or feel a little more gotten in one way or another. ☺
In a person’s lifetime there may be not more than half a dozen occasions that he can look back to in the certain knowledge that right then, at that moment, there was room for nothing but happiness in his heart.
―Ernestine Gilreth Carey, Belles on Their Toes
And my half a dozen has just recently dawned on me and I’m so thankful I wish it won’t go away. 😊
Aidee Ever Upwards 